Eva B. Holocaust testimony

A follow-up, directed videotape testimony of Eva B., whose two testimonies were recorded in 1979. Mrs. B. notes she now wants to deal with the emotional aspects of her experience rather than the factual portions, as she did in her other testimonies. She discusses not sharing her story with her children in order to protect them; her sense of aloneness (she is a widow); returning to Prague with her children; her ease at speaking Czech compared to English; feeling she has no home to which she can return or place where she really belongs; vivid images of incidents in Theresienstadt and Auschwitz; feeling outside of herself in the camps and dreaming of food; difficulty establishing relations today due to her experiences; continuing to avoid sharing her most painful memories; being ostracized in camp which pains her even today and contributes to her sense of alienation; guilt that she survived and others "as good" as she did not; abhorring violence due to her unbearable memories; thinking of herself as a collaborator because she worked for the Nazis and offered a bribe to avoid a transport; her memories becoming more painful over time; and thoughts of writing her autobiography.

4 videocassettes (3/4" u-matic)